I recently talked on my podcast, (inaudible), about the inscrutable paradox of one of the core concepts in the messages from the Confederation: that of being a mind/body/spirit complex with free will while also aspiring to be an instrument of the Creator. The question doesn’t so much center around whether “we” have free will or not, but more of what “we” are in the first place. The entire crux of the issue of will lies in the source of its agency, and if the self is not understood completely then what it means for it to exercise choice is uncertain, to put it mildly!

Here’s a short excerpt from the same 1980 session as last post hinting at how this works for wanderers, e.g. those from higher densities who assume the veil for the purposes of incarnating into third density to serve and grow without conscious awareness of their pedigree. The concept of the wanderer doesn’t really make sense at all unless there is more to the self than its conscious side. This is why meditation is the best training for service: it gets you in touch with this side such that you can make free will decisions that act upon information you cannot possibly obtain consciously (hunches, intuitions, past life memories) while also helping you use the third density experience to further learn about yourself and make polarizing choices.

Note also that simply accepting one’s feeling of displacement is important for the wanderer. I wonder if this confirmation and comfort from complexes like Latuii isn’t a signficant part of a wanderer’s “activation.” Imagine being a plumber and not knowing it; everybody’s coming to you with all these problems and you have no idea why. Somebody tells you you are a plumber, you have the training, you just don’t remember. It’s not necessarily good news, but it at least explains what was once pure chaos. And who knows? You might pick up that wrench and something comes back to you…

You are coming in contact with your teacher, who has been dealing with you for some time. Your lessons do not have any connection with your physical life in this density, at this time, rather, with the continuing evolution of your true self in its whole capacity. This part of your education is something that you could not do without. Nor could most of those who are called “apples” or “wanderers” by this instrument. The vibrations of your adopted dwelling place are such that it is very difficult for most of you to receive consciously the continuing lessons that you desire in your spirit self. Therefore, they must take place when your spirit is released through sleep.

Does this answer your question, my sister?

Questioner: (inaudible)

Latwii: No, my sister, that is not precisely the reason for the separation. You were brave and desired to help the planet in which you now dwell. However, you were extremely reluctant to leave the very concentrated study, it was your whole existence previously. Thus, you did not invest your Earthly personality with a giant helping of your true personality but reserved a generous portion of it for continuing your study. This has caused you to feel as you described.

The possibility of uniting the astral or ethereal self and the S self, as you may put it, is quite good and would only require that both the S self and the astral or spiritual self requested the adjustment. However, we find that you are doing very well in aiding the planet, just as you intended. And therefore, any changes that you make in your personality are entirely up to your own personal discretion. For you are doing what you came to do. And, we realize, that is your answer.

Does this aid you, my sister?

Questioner: (inaudible)

I am Latwii. We believe that you are describing the sphere known as Earth [inaudible]. We have to agree with you. It is a difficult place at best. Now, let us seriously address your question.

As we said before, there is no need for you to feel that you are shirking your responsibilities to your adopted planet. For you have invested your personality with a tenacity towards helping the planet. There is nothing lacking in that part of your personality. Also, you have not cut your ties with your teachers but are continuing your education. This was a prerequisite to your coming here, for you could not have survived or you could not have taken the vibrations. Therefore, your fears are groundless. And you do not have to feel guilty about yearning to go back home. For you have made arrangement to bring a little bit of home with you. And we repeat, those who are fond of the man-made creation upon your planet are either not paying attention or are somewhat negatively polarized.

You have a beautiful sphere upon which to live in. It is unfortunate that the entities upon that sphere are not as beautiful in their manifestations of love and service to others. We would find it very, very unusual that a wanderer could feel at home in such an atmosphere. The instrument through which we speak, for instance, has never been able to live well in this atmosphere of distrust and hostility and the vibrations have affected her body, although her spirit is very brave.

The one known as B is the most serene soul of the three of you. However, she too would give anything to be at home again. Therefore, rest easily, for each of you having made the sacrifice and followed through with your decision are doing what you came to do. And there is nothing more to be said and not guilt to be felt because you do not like some of the excesses of negativity in this sphere. We ourselves have spent most of our time working in the inner dimensions and (inaudible)…

- Latuii via Rueckert: June 7, 1980