I’ve been preoccupied with personal struggles to stay grounded and focused in my seeking while also scrambling to prepare for the Richmond Meditation Circle Invitational gathering this weekend. It’s been difficult to find the strength of heart to prepare for the channeling I’ll doubtless be asked to do. Despair and Jeremy are bosom buddies and have been for many years, and yet neither of us could survive without plodding along down the path, even if imperfectly.

What has suffered chiefly is my morning routine, where I would normally read a Confederation message or two and then do my meditation and contact practice. I’ve been stuck on this session from over 46 years ago due to its length. I lost confidence in my ability to work my way through the meandering plot of these early messages, growing bored and losing attention. If my sleep has been poor as it has been recently, it’s almost useless to try to benefit from this reading.

Yesterday, however, we held an online meditation on Orbiter populated by many of the friends who will be joining me in person this weekend. I felt finally like a weight was lifted, like suddenly I could stop obsessing about whether I was good enough or sufficiently prepared. It’s about common seeking, not delivering a program for the consumption of attendees. Riding on that newfound sense of hope, I finally read my way through this August 3, 1980 session, and it was so much better than it had been feeling those many times I had started and abandoned it!

Hatonn’s message here is to focus on what matters, to put the emphasis there, and to go easy on the mundane details of incarnation. It’s easy for me to think that the former depends on the latter, but that’s a decision I make. It’s not the inherent nature of the seeking for this key to the door behind which truth lies. The treasures we store up, whether on Earth or in heaven, aren’t important because of their innate value nearly as much as because they draw our attention, our care, our worry to them. It is the thought we give them that makes them treasures; it is where we think value lies that determines how we polarize and use the friction of all treasure hunts to transform our lives and find the key to one truth’s door, and then the next truth’s door, and then the next.

I am Hatonn, and I greet you in the love and the light of the infinite Creator. It gives me great pleasure to welcome each of you and especially those who are new to this group, for it is a great privilege to be able to make contact with our brothers upon your sphere who are seeking to know the same truth that we are seeking to know. We look down upon your sphere at this time from a distance of approximately, as this instrument would say, eight of your miles. It is mostly in shadow at this time from our vantage point. Within those shadows, my friends, are many, many peoples who have largely concluded their business for the day. Many are sleeping. Many are not yet sleeping, but are distracting themselves. Some contemplate the weighty problems of their possessions and a few, my friends, like you seek to know the truth.

We hope that we can tell you enough that you can find the key to the door on the other side of which lies the truth. That is our highest hope. No more than that can we hope to do, for you have the key already, but you have largely lost the ability and the will to use it. You must understand that so much, my friends, of what you think and do is in vain, pertaining only to a daily life that is transient. What of your wisdom have you not found turned to folly? Of how many of your possessions have you not grown tired? How many of your words remain shining, and how many have become tarnished or forgotten? How many lives have you touched today, my friends?

You see, my friends, within the illusion that you now enjoy, it is useless to attempt to be of service by yourself. You cannot store up enough possessions to be of service to yourself or to others. You cannot store up enough goodwill in your heart to be pleasant of your own accord. For those of us with free will, my friends, have that fatal weakness of those with free will: we are separated from infinity by our self-consciousness.

The way to discover the key of which we spoke… ah yes, my friends, that lies beyond the illusion. That is not in vain, nor it is a striving after shadows, although it may seem to be the only thing that you do that is not real, and that my friends, is of course, meditation. In meditation, day by day, month by month, year by year, you develop within yourself a certain bias or means of approaching the illusion. You find yourself equipped with a connection to infinite supplies of patience, goodwill, kindness and the many other fruits of love.

Look at your life, my friends. You are looking at a looney tune. It is not your fault, that is your vibration. Put the captions under the comics, smile to yourself, and proceed, for there is more. There is something behind the cartoon. There is a reality which is unnameable, unknowable, ineffable and unspeakable. However, my friends, it can be experienced and shared, and this is where we go beyond, and I say far beyond, my friends, the wisdom of your peoples. For they do not believe that there is a possibility that your life could possibly mean anything. Many of your peoples honestly cannot conceive of a reality greater than the vanity and the folly which they now enjoy.

We assure you, my brothers and sisters, there is a reality, and then another, and then another—each one clearer than the last, each one truer to the original Thought of love. And as you meditate, as your mind and your heart become accustomed to the vibrations of silence and inward possession of yourself, you will begin to ascend more and more into these realms of higher reality until you yourself may see, without being disturbed, the folly of this particular vibration. You will not be disturbed because you will see it as an opportunity to witness, by the love that you show forth, the name of the Creator which you carry in your eyes and in your hands, as you give and receive love and service with each other.

It is written in your holy works, “Store not up for yourselves treasures upon Earth where moth and rust corrupt and thieves may break in and steal, but rather store up for yourselves treasures in heaven and you will have the better part.” Have you stored up treasures, my friends? Which department do they fit into? In your daily life, take the time to give of yourself in meditation to the Creator who never leaves you. As you give yourself to that consciousness, It will give Itself too in infinite amount to you.

- Hatonn via Rueckert: August 3, 1980